First Blog
POSTED AT 01:03 PM

Nikolai

Location: Robinson Pioneer.

this will be the first blog that i'll be posting with my P990i. Believe me I am having so much fun. Although I have to admit I am having a hard time keying in words since the qwerty keyboard is sports minute keys and somehow it feels cramped.

My P990i is still an amazing phone. I'll be posting my review on my next post.

Just to give you a glimpse of my lovelfie. I am actually here in Cybergate Mall (robs pioneer) because I am waiting for my baby to finish his application in Accenture. He's about to sign his contract in a few minutes. I am really happy that he decided to transfer here because finally we'll be together in one company.

Starting Over
POSTED AT 05:43 AM

Nikolai

So much for working hard and chasing your dreams. Here I am typing the numbness I feel. My head is as murky as mud. I know somewhere within the walls of my brain an inner voice is waiting to scream.

I am ready to move on to another great company. I am leaving Convergys and all the painful memories it has inflicted. With me, a bag of hopes, dreams, and all the lessons learned.

Sometimes I feel tired of starting over. Sometimes I just want to fast forward to the end of my story just to get a glimpse of how I will turn out. That will be such a spoiler, though. Geez, I never really thought that this tapestry was part of God's humor.

I am sorry that I am not in the position to expound every thing as of yet. But to give you a background of what I am goin through, I am leaving Convergys and the opportunity to become a Team Leader. Something that I have worked hard for and here I am, starting over.

Techasm
POSTED AT 05:04 AM

Nikolai

New favoirite toy. P990i.

I just got one. I am so amazed with this phone. I can't even think of where to start. Review on my next post.

ooops, just had an orgasm

Your Favorite Blogs
POSTED AT 09:41 AM

Nikolai

Quick post before I start breezing through my friends' tabbies. Hehehe.

For the past few weeks, I keep myself awake during wee hours of the morning to manage my sleeping routine. I am almost always asleep from 10 a.m. to 7 p.m. and durinng weekends, I sleep until 12 a.m.

So most of my days off from work are spent browsing through my friends blogs since I dont have anybody to talk to or any place to spend time on. I actually find myself envious of their lives but heck, I know everybody wants to tell how good their lives are and I am having fun reading them.

I guess this post does not have a clear direction. Neither does anything as of the moment. Hell, I am a zombie. The only thing that keeps me concious right is coffee.

Well, off to reading again.

Oh, to anyone who will read this post, please make sure drop a line or two and include your favorite blogs so I can read through them.

26-ish
POSTED AT 01:23 AM

Nikolai

I haven't really been on the best of shape lately, emotionally and physically.

When I started with Convergys, It was a new life ahead of me. I had boyfriend to keep me sane and although the job didn't really pay much, at least I was I satisfied. In short, I thought my life was perfect.

Little did I know that too much ado about nothing will take a toll on me. So here I am, a year older, still struggling to survive. A lot of things changed, though. I am no longer depressed over being single. For one thing, the boyfriend is doing a marvelous job in keeping that department closed. Another is the fact that I have become a little overweight which I am currently doing something about.

At some point, I have managed to keep my distance from my beloved friends. I would say that it was intentional and as much as I regret it, the fruit of such absence is worth it. I admit that I have not found anyone that amount to how much I value them or even compare with the happiness I feel being around them. I know that they will always remain as my friends no matter how I run away from them.

About the weight issue, uhmmm so what? I had fun last year. Me and my boyfriend constantly dine out. I hated the fact that I was not even able to write about it because I was in ecstacy and writing would somehow take the fun away from everything. Llife was a routine for quite some time. We have breakfast and lunch together. Every weekend, we go out watch a movie and eat anything on our path.

Well, two months ago, I decided to enroll at slimmer's world. I have not yet achieved the bodybuilt but I am getting there.

There are so many things that I really want to write about but I am getting tired of typing. Hopefully beforeI turn 26, I get to finish everything.

Baby Nicnic
POSTED AT 01:43 AM in whining, indispensible love, sililoquies

Nikolai

It has been a year since she died.

I have always adored this little critter. Ever since she came into our lives, things have been different.

Like all other stories of deaths, there are certain things I regret about. The morning she died, I was looking for a vase that would fit her carcass so that we can plant flower and bring her anywhere we go. I know that I should have been home before she died because she was waiting for me.

A week before her death, I was plunged in a deep depression. I could feel in every vein that her time was near. After giving her a bath, I lie flat beside her humming a tune, hoping it would ease the pain she was feeling, and hoping that the good Lord will immediately end her misery. It was the most painful scene I can remember.

She spent 11 years with us. I wish I still have her now. I know that this post does not give justice to how much I miss her but I just have to write down every tear I shed. I love her so much and I know forever I will be crying because I will never have her badk.

To my baby Nicnic, I love you.

POSTED AT 10:04 AM

Nikolai

I see you walking away and I end up with a fear that you may not come back. All I have is your promise of returning and that comforts me through the night. Your words have power over me, please shower me with your words that I may survive each day without you.

I love you, I will always will.