When the feeling starts to grow, you better run fast.

The chase is so exhilarating.

This blog was a failed attempt to be anonymous. I was too excited and didnt realize that I was uploading too muych picture of me.

This blog was my sole companion through depression. I may not have everything that I want and need in life but at least I am no longer alone. I no longer have reasons to be too sad anjd whine.

This blog will be remembered, will be visited from time to time, so I can keep myself reminded of who I was and how far have I become.

Thank you to the lessons learned. I have become stronger, resilient and wiser.

I will no longer be blogging from tabulas. Good bye my tabby.

Things that I have accomplished so far:

1. Bought a laptop
2. Bought a Car
3. Became a Team Leader
4. Relationship with the boyfriend keeps getting stronger
5. Have managed to keep my sanity so far.

Things that I need to work on.

1. Keeping sanity.
2. Weight needs to be managed.
3. House. Need to buy my own.
4. Learn how to drive.
5. Get an anti-virus for the laptop.
6. Live life worry free.


Yes, things are just getting better. I am scared though, I have to admit. I am not used to things getting better. Oh well, get rested and hopefully not be depressed by tomorrow.

Location: Londonderry, UK

It is a sad place without the person you love most. I am starting to miss his kisses.

He is numb. He doesn't seem to care. He doesn't bother asking how my day is. When I am sad, he doesn't text me smileys and qoutes that says how life is great. When I am mad, my inquiries are never answered and all he gives me is silence.

Despite of all that he is not, I know he loves me. I have no intention of changing what we are and what we were. I look forward beyond dreams, and hope that our future is better than our past.

To my pillar, you have no idea how happy I am that we are still together. I wish that I can tell the whole world how much I love you; and if I have, you know for a fact that no word gives justice to what I feel for you.

I have got to stop spending.

Every payday, I have this overwhelming urge to spend all my two weeks earning on greasy-arteries-clogging-yet-so-wickedly-delicious sweets. It does not really help if you are with the company of equally healthy, meaning abundant, eaters who have the same passion for food. As a result, here I am dragging my big fat ass and my tummy as an obvious indication of my pay slip.

On top of that, I really have no idea on how to spend my earnings wisely. After getting one gadget, here I am eyeing another, and worse it’s expensive. It’s like beating a world record every single time.

I remember my younger brother told me about an article he read on investing one’s earnings. It talked about acquiring objects that would eventually be a source of income. He said that while I am young and have the ability to earn a decent living, I should start investing on some sort of business. If my investment will end up in futility, at least I still have the capability to earn. Granted that my business will succeed, I can start saving for my future.

Makes sense.

So, here I am, knowing that in the next few weeks, the 13th month bonus and other allowance being given, temptation is stronger. I have to think twice before even spending a dime.

It took me three weeks to fully accept P990i as I synchronize it with my day to day events. Well, not that I have my hands full or anything, but as an average person, I don’t really have the needs that it promises to fulfill. It took me a while to find it really useful but when you get the hang of it, you just wouldn’t get enough actually.

Equipped with a 2 megapixel camera, it produces great pictures. The screen shows a crisp detail of every angle and lighting condition and with auto focus you can never go wrong. I feel that this defines the concept of point and shoot. Cool thing about the auto focus, it produces a sound as soon as the camera is ready to shoot. It has front camera that takes care of Video conferencing of which me and my beau are very fond of.

With its own file manager, P990i is a powerful organizer. It comes with a Acrobat Reader and Quick Office that would basically take care of all your important document and office presentation. I bet this will find its purpose as soon as I go back to school.

Impressively, the screen defines colors at its best. The brightness can be adjusted to one’s preference. Draw back about the screen is that whenever on its Flip Closed mode, the icons are sort of jagged on its edges. I believe that this has something to do with the sudden change of screen size. Also, in outdoor lighting condition, you would have a very hard time seeing what’s on the screen.

The screen also responds to the tap almost instantly. Although there are occasions that the icons would hang before executing a command, a quick restart of the phone often does the job.

I like the idea of having everything in one device. You bring your files with you and review them or even edit them before you send it through e-mail. Neat thing about it is that you have myriad options for your connectivity needs. It comes with Wifi to help you connect to hotspots anywhere around the metro and if any wireless lan is not present, you have GPRS or 3G to take care of your internet connection.

The P990i is a powerful device. Sad part about it though is that there are no programs being developed to enhance its usage. Oh, and yes, it does restart a lot. Heck, it is still one powerful phone.